grief stricken

On February 28, my sister passed on after a long battle with brain tumors. She fought hard for so many years and endured so much pain. All the while she would be happy, have a huge smile and just enjoy life. I am empty inside. The loss was very sudden, we were told we would have 4-6 months. I guess God had other plans. The only thing that gives me comfort is knowing that she is no longer in excruciating pain. My sister was my hero and my best friend. I don't know how I will go through life without her encouragement, love and contagious laugh. I just want one more bone crushing hug, I want another text asking me how my day was and to give Ansley a big kiss, I want her to see Ansley grow up, I want to watch Bones with her one more time, I want her back. I know that is selfish, but this all seems like a horrible nightmare. Shelly lived like no one I know. She did anything to pursue her dreams, she always told you how much she loved you, and she fought...she fought for her life, for what she believed in, for who she loved. Shelly...I don't know how we will go on with out you, but I know that you are here with us. I feel your presence when I am with your baby girl Ansley, please watch over my baby, keep her safe. You are so loved and so so missed. My heart breaks when I see reminders of you. I love you sissy and miss you like crazy!!